Letter
God,
Please keep healing me. I’m letting you come in and have your way in my life. I want to know your love and learn to love myself. And I want to learn to love others well too. Please don’t let me become cold and hard. Penetrate my heart. Break through everything I build up. I become too easily calloused and numb, but I am praying that you will continue to work on me. Please don’t give up on me. I want to live. I want to walk in your freedom, though I don’t always choose to get off my mat. I have actually grown quite comfortable on that mat, though I hate it at the same time. Its really easy to stare at my wounds. It’s easy to hold on to the pain, and let unforgiveness and resentment grow in my heart towards other people. But I don’t want that for my life. It just hurts. I want to let go. I know you’re moving already, but I just pray for reconciliation. Make me new. I pray for child-like faith again. Move in my life in a new way this season. Teach me to trust you.
Though I am much more aware of my own brokenness now, and feel much more broken in this time, I pray that you would use me in this place. I want you to move through me to touch other people. You are the reason I live. Thank you for pursuing me, and calling me lovely. You gave me hope, when everything seemed hopeless. And from that point on, you have changed my life. You have never stopped working in me or pursuing me. And I know that one day I will stand whole and healed, because of your action in my life.
Thank you for loving me. Move as you will today. 
Love.
Lex
